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[the_muppet]

Feeling quite down this morning, but trying hard to shake it off/ignore it.  The reasons why are behing the cut, but you can skip this if you like  ;)

Well, I guess the main reason is I have a quite important meeting on Tuesday to attempt to resolve my potentially screwed financial situation - and I honestly couldn't say which way it will go - and that's not just me being pessimistic.  I've tried (successfully) to not think/worry about this meeting the last couple of weeks, but this weekend it's been the first thought in my head when I wake up in the morning.  Therefore I need to concentrate the next couple of days on pushing it out again - there really is no point at this stage worrying about it - whatever happens will happen on Tuesday.

Also, I'm alternately pissed off/upset about what I perceive to be the situation over at the forum right now - I say perceive because I am a little paranoid at times, and I do tend to take things personally.  As predicted, I was primarily blamed for the guidelines we put in place to stop the ridiculous amounts of spam posts we were getting - and I stick by that decision.  And yes, I pushed for this to happen, but then so did those who took the time to email Gater or myself to say it was getting ridiculous.  I took a little flack at the time, mostly privately, but way less than I'd expected, so I thought it was all OK.  Since then, though, the general atmosphere over there feels different, and I'm not the only one who's noticed it - it was commented on the other day in an email a friend sent me.  Also, (and this is where my paranoia shows!) I get the distinct feeling that the majority of what I post is ignored.  Sure, I sometimes get some sort of half-hearted response, but usually it's nothing - and that's since the guidelines issue.  I try really hard to generate posting when things get slack for a while, and these days it just fails every time.  Other people do the same thing and get instant results. It should piss me off, but I just find it upsetting, but that's my fault cos I take things to heart too much.  I have seriously contemplated the last few weeks, just pulling out of there altogether - it's not like I don't have enough RL stress - but I helped set that place up and it would be a huge wrench to walk away from it.  And because I'm finding this subject very upsetting, I'm going to leave it there.

I'm hoping to start on a vid today - sadly not SGA as I don't have enough material yet.  It's an F4 vid, which I would like to get finished before next weekend for The Boy as it's his birthday this week  :)

Also, on the search for Season 2 of SGA - all help appreciated  :)

*Hugs to all*

Comments

[azonia.livejournal.com]

Oh Muppet! And you've been sounding so happy recently *huggies* I know what it's like to stress over financial situations, I hope everything turns out ok for you.

Although I don't visit the forums anymore, and I'm sorry about that. But I just can't take certain people, and how people are in certain fandoms, and I seem to take things too much to heart. But I don't think you should skip out. Your the one who keeps it together.

I'll see what I can do about looking for downloads of S2 of SGA for you :)

*mega huggies*

[the-muppet.livejournal.com]

I also take things too much to heart, but I think also at the moment I'm seriously freaked out by what will happen on Tuesday, and much as I've managed to keep a lid on it for the last couple of weeks, it just seems to be sneaking back up on me the last couple of days.

And you're right - I have been sooooo much happier lately. I'm fine really, just felt the need to vent a little this morning - and really, the forum is nothing like the bitch-fest I know some places can be! I think (hope) Gater & I have made sure of that ;)

I'm being a fussy moo about my S2 SGA downloads - I've found some with the Sci-Fi logo and some without .... so am starting to get picky! :D

*big hugs*

M x