{ tod and hospital and flist cut and stuff. }

[the_muppet]

1) tod: I am not writing a new Timetable of Doom for September! You know how happy this makes me, right? I decided that there wasn't really any point, and we should continue to run the summer timetable I recently wrote (as I'm quite proud of it and think it should run for longer) and the management team were totally fine with that, so yay, no new ToD right now! I'm just going to tweak the summer one a little, then probably do a whole new one at the end of the year instead. Whew =)

2) nose: Had a check-up at the hospital a couple of weeks ago where I expected (and I think they expected too) that I'd now get the all-clear on the nose operation being successful, but having poked around with a camera up there, they say it's still healing and I have to go back in another 6 weeks. I'm not worried though, it feels the best it ever has and I'm sure this time the operation worked.

3) anxiety: Am struggling a bit more with anxiety again, and I won't go into too much detail and bore those of you who don't know about it with the ins and outs of it all, but the mood swings that go with my anxiety are bothering me lately; very up for a few days, then very down for a few days, on top of all the anxiety stuff. It isn't fun. Pretty up right now, though that in itself bothers me as it feels false (which I know it is) and I know what comes next. So, will focus instead on happy things and stave off the downside as long as I can =)

4) flist cut: I always find flist cuts make me very anxious, and I've enough anxiety in my life as it is so this time, I'm not going to keep putting it off and I'm just going to get on with it. Then again, I'm equally pathetic about friending people too. Anyhow, will be doing a flist cut this weekend; some of us are following each other out of nothing more than habit now, which is a shame but that's life, I guess, and it isn't really a reason to be stay on anyone's flist; I like my flist manageable enough that I can read all the entries and for it to be interactive, which is why I keep it relatively small, and if we're not interacting and/or are not interested in what each other is saying, then what's the point, yeah? As always, no hard feelings whatsoever, we've just moved on from each other and I guess that's how it goes.

5) photos: A couple of old photos for you, as I no longer have a camera to offer you new ones:

One of Peter which I really like, taken about 3 weeks ago:



One of my friend Sam taken in my office at work months ago; she's showing you how to pose for a photos without anyone seeing you have a double chin. Crafty.





*love & hugs to you all* ♥

Comments

[eyesofapanda.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't, m'dear! If you want or need to talk about it, then please, by all means, do. It's what friendships on LJ are for, after all - not just prancing around together waving I LOVE SLASH AND ALL THINGS SLASHY pompoms, ne? xD

But in all seriousness, if you ever feel like talking about it, then do, because I'm sure you have friends who will listen. There's not much anyone can do to solve the problem, I assume, but they can help relieve the pain of being alone, perhaps. A smile or a laugh goes all the way. (: And you're certainly not a weirdo! On a scale of weirdness, it's not that bad at all, aha.

Hells yes. I'm excited already too! It'll be my first fest in a long, long, long time! <3

[the-muppet.livejournal.com]

Well when I do sometimes talk about it I do make sure it's filtered so most people don't have to read it, and those that have read it have been incredibly helpful and supportive, and I absolutely know you're right about how talking helps. I just need to learn that lesson a little more, I think =)

Bring on the B/C love fest! *polishes my tin hat*

[eyesofapanda.livejournal.com]

I can understand that - it's a private matter of yours that you're only comfortable sharing with people you trust. In a way, adversity isn't all bad, because at the end of it, you know who your true friends are. (: We all keep learning that, and more, each day. It actually frightens me, how much I've changed in only a year, but I've always been very malleable irl.

:D I haven't worn my tin hat in so long. *weeps with happiness*

[the-muppet.livejournal.com]

If I do decide to talk about it some more, or update people on where I'm at with it, you're actually on that filter anyway, so don't say you weren't warned!

And yes, recognising who your true friends are is incredibly important, and something like this does help you realise that.

I tend to not be one of those people who talks a lot about fandom stuff (so I'm sorry if you're here under false pretences!) but your post and our comments made me happy to know I'm not alone in the opinions I shared ;)

*HUGS*

[eyesofapanda.livejournal.com]

I am ready for any weirdness or madness you may throw at me! And in return, you'd better be aware of what my hang-ups are: my parents, my lack of a boyfriend (and the emotional problems I seem to have that come with this, joy of all joys), and generally just posting lengthy, not-entirely-philosophical ramblings of bullshit. xD Unlike your wise self, I don't use filters - never have, probably never will, unless I really wanted to post something extremely private... But anyway, I'm honoured to be on that filter list, let me say. (: (And it won't be daunting because, well, I may be young, but I feel like I've got to that stage where friends can throw anything at me, and it won't matter.)

(: That's okay! I have friends on my flist who don't post at all, but I still adore them when they do appear. I prefer having friends who post (doesn't matter about what) than never at all, though, because it's so hard trying to get to know a person you never see or speak to. I'm mainly glad you're a Merlin (in particular, A/M and C/B) fangirl, because I would feel terribly sorry for you, being my friend. xD

*squish* <3

[the-muppet.livejournal.com]

I'm mainly glad you're a Merlin (in particular, A/M and C/B) fangirl, because I would feel terribly sorry for you, being my friend.

HA! (though I totally agree.)

Good to know that you're not bothered that I'm not just a fandom rambler. Otherwise you would be sadly disappointed. Which clearly would be a shame. Having you defriend me after only a couple of posts would also be a little embarrasing.

And now I think I need to go put as big a dent as possible in a bag of Cadburys Giant Buttons.

*hugs*

[eyesofapanda.livejournal.com]

I had friends who shipped A/G by the end of my last LJ spree, so... well, I felt fairly awkward about that. ^^;;

No, not bothered at all! Tbh, you can have only so much fandom flail. I admit I do a hell of a lot of it, but what I like about LJ is the mix of that and personal things. (:

Gosh, imagine if we did defriend each other after a few posts? Embarrassing indeed! xD

Enjoy the chocolate, m'dear, and feel better! <3