Still meh............

...........which is horrible.  I just feel really low and flat at the moment, and very paranoid.........which is something I get a lot, but it's just out of proportion at the moment.  My rational side knows that, but I'm still thinking bad stuff, like negatively about myself, and how I must piss people off when I'm like this, but I just can't help it.  But I know it will pass, and I think it's because I've been pretty stressed out over lots of things lately, and I'm just really tired.  It will pass..........and apologies to those I'm sure I've pissed off (you know who you are)

Though a sweet thing did happen yesterday that made me smile  :)  We have this temp guy at work who is basically an opinionated and highly annoying individual, and he takes great delight in winding me up every day - I know I should just walk away, but I can't  ;)   Anyway, he went a bit too far with one of his comments on Monday, and I really let rip at him - he did, however, have the good grace to go pretty red!!   The next-morning, I found a box of Thorntons cakes in my in-box - which he had put there........as those who know me well could tell you, the relationship I have with cakes is very important, and not to be taken lightly!!  So that was great, and he was forgiven..........till the next time!!  What's also cool is that I have lost loads of weight in the last year (and still am) and am told a lot how good I look (which is great!!) yet it pisses off my mates that I can do this on what seems to be a never-ending diet of all the cakes I can lay my hands on!!  :D

Still don't know if I have an interview for this management job yet - have been told I will know tomorrow  ;)

Big hugs and lotsa love to my Three Amigos - monsie you make me laugh and keep me sane ;)   And Gater & CellarDoor - I'm pretty sure I've managed to piss you both off in different ways the last few days..........and I promise I am working on making amends.

And finally........Boo........what the hell would I do without you?  YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!