the_muppet | { tod and hospital and flist cut and stuff. }

1) tod: I am not writing a new Timetable of Doom for September! You know how happy this makes me, right? I decided that there wasn't really any point, and we should continue to run the summer timetable I recently wrote (as I'm quite proud of it and think it should run for longer) and the management team were totally fine with that, so yay, no new ToD right now! I'm just going to tweak the summer one a little, then probably do a whole new one at the end of the year instead. Whew =)

2) nose: Had a check-up at the hospital a couple of weeks ago where I expected (and I think they expected too) that I'd now get the all-clear on the nose operation being successful, but having poked around with a camera up there, they say it's still healing and I have to go back in another 6 weeks. I'm not worried though, it feels the best it ever has and I'm sure this time the operation worked.

3) anxiety: Am struggling a bit more with anxiety again, and I won't go into too much detail and bore those of you who don't know about it with the ins and outs of it all, but the mood swings that go with my anxiety are bothering me lately; very up for a few days, then very down for a few days, on top of all the anxiety stuff. It isn't fun. Pretty up right now, though that in itself bothers me as it feels false (which I know it is) and I know what comes next. So, will focus instead on happy things and stave off the downside as long as I can =)

4) flist cut: I always find flist cuts make me very anxious, and I've enough anxiety in my life as it is so this time, I'm not going to keep putting it off and I'm just going to get on with it. Then again, I'm equally pathetic about friending people too. Anyhow, will be doing a flist cut this weekend; some of us are following each other out of nothing more than habit now, which is a shame but that's life, I guess, and it isn't really a reason to be stay on anyone's flist; I like my flist manageable enough that I can read all the entries and for it to be interactive, which is why I keep it relatively small, and if we're not interacting and/or are not interested in what each other is saying, then what's the point, yeah? As always, no hard feelings whatsoever, we've just moved on from each other and I guess that's how it goes.

5) photos: A couple of old photos for you, as I no longer have a camera to offer you new ones:

One of Peter which I really like, taken about 3 weeks ago:

One of my friend Sam taken in my office at work months ago; she's showing you how to pose for a photos without anyone seeing you have a double chin. Crafty.

*love & hugs to you all* ♥

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i'm glad your surgery went well :)

anxiety is a terrible thing, i struggle with it myself off and on.

**HUGS**

and that's a great pic of your brother :)

It's a lovely picture of Peter, isn't it? It's actually really hard to take good photos of him, so I'm really pleased with that one =)

I'm working hard on the anxiety stuff (as you know) but sometimes, it's just really tiring.

Thanks lovely ♥

Glad to hear about your successful surgery!! *clings*

Great pictures!!

*hugs*

Glad you liked the photos ♥

*hugs*

Peter has really cool cap :)

As for the ups and downs - I know what you mean. I've been a lot like this lately (one of the reasons I'm not around LJ so much anymore). All I can do is offer virtual hugs, because I don't know how to fight it, too =/

*hugs*

Woohoo, no ToD! o/\o That's worth celebrating indeed. Happy to hear too that this surgery's taking :)

And if you need to talk about stuff, you have my email, love. ♥

Good news about the surgery!! :)

*squishes* I hope the up stays up for as long as possible, and that the down won't be such a huge drop. I had... two, I think, anxiety attacks I blogged on LJ before - both of which were entirely in capslock, and, reading them again, make me cringe at how in-your-face they were. xD But srsly, if that helps, do that! It seemed to help me. (:

And I think I'll be keeping ye on my flist for now, m'dear. It's not like we just added each other...! <333

I've been suffering a lot with anxiety this week myself so you have extra mega sympathy on that score. I'm really pleased that your nose is feeling better though. *sends virtual kisses to be placed gently on the tip of it*

And I hope you'll keep me around, because even though we've only known each other a short while I like you a lot, and you've helped me write two of the best Merlin stories I've ever produced, so. *hugs*

Congratulations on the postponing Timetable of Doom! I hope it helps with the anxiety a bit to have that stress off your shoulders... And I'm glad to hear the nose already feels that much better even if it isn't fully healed yet :) Also, nice pics :) *squeezes*

I just need to go with it, I think, it'll even out soon enough =)

*hugs lots*

I'm so glad it's not just me. Takes me forever to do one once I've decided on it, as the anxiety over it just gets ridiculous.

Well it all feels good to me so I think it'll be okay, just that it's taking longer to heal this time, which also makes sense as this surgery was so much mor eintrusive and they did so much.

Thanks love, I know ♥

Fingers crossed I'm right, anyway =)

I try not to talk on here about the anxiety stuff, or if I do, it's heavily filtered. Just makes me feel stupid talking about it, or like a weirdo or something. IDK.

Took us long enough to get on each others flists so yeah, keeping you around! Besides, I want to see how this B/C fest turns out ;)

♥

It sucks, doesn't it? *hugs you* Well you know I'm always here if you need anything =)

You're not going anywhere lovely ♥ (though I don't deserve any credit at all for what you've managed to produce - that's all you!)

I'm pretty pleased with myself for that stroke of genius - I only have to make a few alterations which should be easy enough, and I've put off having to write a new one till the end of the year!

Glad you liked the pics hon ♥

You shouldn't, m'dear! If you want or need to talk about it, then please, by all means, do. It's what friendships on LJ are for, after all - not just prancing around together waving I LOVE SLASH AND ALL THINGS SLASHY pompoms, ne? xD

But in all seriousness, if you ever feel like talking about it, then do, because I'm sure you have friends who will listen. There's not much anyone can do to solve the problem, I assume, but they can help relieve the pain of being alone, perhaps. A smile or a laugh goes all the way. (: And you're certainly not a weirdo! On a scale of weirdness, it's not that bad at all, aha.

Hells yes. I'm excited already too! It'll be my first fest in a long, long, long time! <3

And the same to you. Always happy to listen or whatever.

Yes, you do so deserve credit. If it wasn't for you I'd have given up months ago, honestly I would. So there. :p

I couldn't almost picture you sticking your tongue out at the end of that sentence! All I did was what I should do, and that's support you through it all in any way I could - my job as mod, that's all =) I'm just glad I could help you, though ♥

The world would be a better place without anxiety, sigh. I hope the upsides get better ♥

And good to hear that the nose feels good! Even if it's not quite done healing, I'm sure it'll get there.

That's a lovely picture of Peter, btw :)

*hugs*

*giggle* I'm going to take lessons from Sam. :-D

I'm sorry you're suffering so much from anxiety mood swings. The crappy thing is that they really feed each other, which makes it even more difficult to deal with. I hope you can hold on to this upswing as long as possible. It makes it easier to get stuff done. *hugs tight* I'm sending you healing thoughts.

Well when I do sometimes talk about it I do make sure it's filtered so most people don't have to read it, and those that have read it have been incredibly helpful and supportive, and I absolutely know you're right about how talking helps. I just need to learn that lesson a little more, I think =)

Bring on the B/C love fest! *polishes my tin hat*

I'm glad you liked the photo, I was so pleased with it; it's really hard to take nice photos of him!

It does feel good, so I'm optimistic this time =)

Thanks lovely ♥

*hugs lots*

I can understand that - it's a private matter of yours that you're only comfortable sharing with people you trust. In a way, adversity isn't all bad, because at the end of it, you know who your true friends are. (: We all keep learning that, and more, each day. It actually frightens me, how much I've changed in only a year, but I've always been very malleable irl.

:D I haven't worn my tin hat in so long. *weeps with happiness*

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