I've been missing do to my new fandoms and haven't been on lj in days. I'm just so sorry to hear about your brother and do wish him and your family the best. You're in my thoughts today. And know that there's no wrong choice. A situation like this is terrible and everyone has to handle it the best that they can. If you find that you can't handle seeing your brother in hospital then alcohol is definitely an excellent option.

I wish I could do more then type up my thoughts for you. I wish I could help you get your drink on or hold your hand at the hospital. Again, my thoughts are with you today. *hugs*